Currently Reading Readers Guide: The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People By Editors of SmithRiley see related

I read this in a book once.

i had to read the seven habbits of highly effective people for a class right before i graduated.  so i stayed up late on the friday before i graduated and read it and wrote my paper about it.  that was stupid.  but in the book i learned that people can only effect you as much as you let them.  if some one cuts you off in traffic you can let it make you mad or you can let it go.  it works with big stuff too.  it's a lot harder to ignore something that some one you love does to hurt you, but it's possible.  you have the power to forgive that person and accept them for who they are even if who they are is some one that causes you pain from time to time. 

i often tend to put the blame on everyone and everything other than myself when something goes wrong.  i make a lot of excuses for stuff.  not every time, but a lot of the time it's never my fault.  at least i try to convince myself that it's not my fault.  it's not healthy what i do.  i actually search for reasons why something didn't go the way it should so i'm not held accountable.  if i miss the ball in softball i look at my glove like i'm using faulty equipment when the problem lies with my hand-eye coordination.  well i'm taking the blame not.  it's my fault.  not the glove's fault.  it's mine.

Currently Listening Can You Hear Me By Keaton Simons see related

is anyone around me?

hi.  do any of my friends still do this thing? 

i kinda want to start writing again due to recent developments.  i'm bored.  i have plenty of time to tell you what's going on in my life and since i have plenty of time to tell you then there won't be much to write. 

i'm working as a temp at cincinnati state. today i'm not going to say what i do(which isn't much) but i'm sure i'll tell later.  i'm not ready for the embarassment just yet.  i need a better job.  i apply to many jobs a day and get rejected a lot.  i deal with rejection well since it's something that i've experienced most of my life.  i liked a girl in kindergarten, but she didn't like me back and gave me a look of discust.  i want to write another poem, but i don't want it to suck like some of the others i've written.  i hate them now that i read them after time has passed.  i knew when i wrote them that they weren't the best and not exactly finished, but i didn't know they were this bad.  you lied to me. 

i love April.  her and i have been together for over 1 1/2 years and i like the way things are going.  we work different shifts and it's kinda hard right now because sometimes she wants to stop by after work and i have a hard time finding the words to tell her that i want to go to sleep because i have to get up in the morning.

ok. i'm done for now.  and who knows how long after now.

btw.  i hate to step on tiles that are different colors.  i don't like to step on cracks, but i can live with that.  it's the stupid multi colored tiles that tick me off.  and i love gmail. kai thanks bye.

Currently Listening Beer Drinking Songs By Die Lustige Munchen Musikanten edna backed her jeep over the kin folk. see related

bible school is next week at church.  i have to do a skit every day.  my character is captain chris p. cooky.  real exciting.

i'm a 401k loan speciallist.  if you have a 401k call me and well see about getting you a loan.

we had a family reunion this weekend.  my mom's cousin got drunk and ran over her nephew/ neice(we're not sure yet) while they were asleep in a tent.  who else can say that?  wow.

Currently Listening Creedance Clearwater Revival: Two Disc Set see related

i'm going to S.C. soon.  in just a few hours.  i'm still packing kinda.  i figured i'd get online real quick before i packed away the lappy. 

i would just like to say to all of my friends that i never get to see that i'm sorry about that.  things don't always go the way you want.  i wish that the only thing i had to do was hang out with all you cool people but that's not all i have to do and gets pushed back a lot.  it's sad i know.